This collection displays my attitudes towards men, isolation and my future.
Time between creation and recalling the abuse follows each piece.
drawn 30 years before the repressed memories surfaced
30 years before
25 years before, sample project for my senior high students
33 years before
30 years before
26 years before
The following two metal sculptures are self-portraits.
26 years before
I'm encased in a puzzle box. If solved, the second line of defense stabs the intruder. I wore the ring to a family gathering at the uncle & aunt's house. Below, I have been sutured down onto rigid plates. I can't move, grow or bloom.
39 years before
The close up detail at top left, shows the despondent girl's tear. The approaching girl aims to ridicule her.
This sketch book was started during private art lessons. The aunt found the teacher and purchased the classes. Only I, neither my sister or cousins received any such "gift".
She also brought me; only me, on a trip to Colorado.
The uncle gave me an slr camera. Once again, neither sister or cousin received a gift. He took me on "photography trips".
Thecamera was stepped on by a horse. The aunt had brought me on a trail ride in Colorado.
23 years before
In college, coworkers and I went to a bar to listen to a band. I never went to bars. I was uneasy.
A guy I'd obsessed over was constantly on my mind. We made out once, then blew me off. I had never done anything physical with anyone (that I was conscious of) before that. I felt horrible about myself.
The reflection of the back of his head appears in the window on the open door.
13 years before
Two rapes took place in secluded wooded areas. Focusing on the trees above helped me to disassociate from my body.
One day, I shoved my kitchen table aside to put these huge canvases on the floor. I painted them in an hour or two. I hadn't painted for myself in over a decade, nor have I since.
One is now partially ripped off of its supports.